its too hard to sleep

it's a story everyone has heard before: soojung, secondborn in a family who could barely take care of their first daughter, was neglected as much as the first. this led to a thirst for attention, but no matter how much she screamed and cried she was just told to shape up or ship out. she didn't shape up (how could a kid not even in school yet shape up?) so she was shipped out to her aunt who lived in the States. luckily, this woman loved soojung as if she was her own. she gave her the american name krystal and taught her how to speak, read and write in english. even though her aunt loved her more than her mother ever had, soojung couldn't get over wanting all eyes on her, so she acted out. she was a physical kid, always pushing and shoving to make sure was first in line and even then she hated to lose so she was always first even if someone had to suffer for it. she was labelled a problem child once kids went home and told their parents about the bully in school who never let them be first in line to go back in after recess or first in line to get lunch. her aunt decided to start trying soojung in different after-school activities. first it was piano, which she was good at but didn't have the patience for. second was ballet which she was also good at but had to be pulled out quickly when someone else got first in their recitial. finally, she decided soojung needed to have something physical - so she enrolled her in tae kwon do. she thrived. her attitude quickly improved once she could take out all her illbegotten anger out on the people in the class without any ramification, leaving her school life a lot quieter and manageable.

her life was normal all through middle school, though she was always the girl who had more boy friends then girl friends. she played games with them, ran around outside with them, even fought with them when they made her mad enough. she was a force to reckon with and she loved it. her aunt seemingly let her do whatever she wanted, and she was that kid that was out all hours of the night with her friends doing god knows what and she was lucky she wasn't caught. her grades were good enough, though they dropped near the end of her last year when she started dating her best friend. it burned too quickly and too brightly and she was sure she was in love but it ended after a few months and she was devastated, and had no idea how to deal with feeling this way anymore. she fought harder and won more championships and filled the hole he left but she was more selective with who she dated from then on.

highschool was going to be the best four years of her life...until her mother called and wanted her to move back to korea. her father was sick and dying and she couldn't deal with the loss of him alone so she wanted her precious youngest back. too bad soojung was anything but precious, and the fuss she kicked up about having to back was unreal. but in the end, she was back in korea just before the school year started, dealing with her distraught mother and sickly father, her sister seemingly gone from the picture completely. hell, did she even remember how to speak Korean? she caught back on quickly, though she wasn't much of a daughter to the parents who had never been parents to her. she barely visited her father and she was never home, choosing to spend her time at arcades and when she made friends, with them. when she got boyfriends? all her time with them. first and second year of highschool was a blur of never being home and ignoring phone calls from her sobbing mother.

and then her father died. she wasn't sad, but her mother was falling apart at home and when her aunt finally came and visited from the States to be with her mother she was appauled at how soojung was acting. she moved in with the both of them and got soojung back on track, getting her grades back up while picking up the pieces of her sister who had just lost her beloved husband. soojung eventually apologized to her mother, though the apology she got back wasn't the one she was looking for but she had to accept it or she was sure her aunt would kill her. she dated less frequently and studied more, played more games and stayed home more. she absorbed her mother's mood and felt sad all the time, but she fought through it. her aunt was supposed to leave but she ended up just staying there because her sister was in a bad place, and she couldn't trust soojung on her own.

and though it didn't come as much of a surprise to soojung, one morning she and her aunt woke up and her mother was just gone. no note, nothing. they waited there for her to come back but eventually they just packed up and moved to a smaller house, and if soojung said she wasn't happy to leave that godforsaken house it would be a bold faced lie. she figured they'd go back to the states but her aunt wanted to stay here in case her mother came back, and soojung begrudgingly accepted and continued on with school. she got more involved with the teams at her school, though couldn't really find anything she wanted to stick to. she played less and less games (which annoyed her on occassion) and started dating again. what could she say? she liked the attention.

she kept her grades up and graduated near the top of her class, applying to the same university her mother and father had both went to: yonsei.. she even rushed for the same sorority that her mother had been in, ZTA. she got in, though she struggled with balancing classes and parties. boxing got her full attention though, if only because it felt good to be fighting again.

	jung soojung it's a story everyone has heard before: soojung, secondborn in a family who could barely take care of their first daughter, was neglected as much as the first. this led to a thirst for attention, but no matter how much she screamed and cried she was just told to shape up or ship out. she didn't shape up (how could a kid not even in school yet shape up?) so she was shipped out to her aunt who lived in the States. luckily, this woman loved soojung as if she was her own. she gave her the american name krystal and taught her how to speak, read and write in english. even though her aunt loved her more than her mother ever had, soojung couldn't get over wanting all eyes on her, so she acted out. she was a physical kid, always pushing and shoving to make sure was first in line and even then she hated to lose so she was always first even if someone had to suffer for it. she was labelled a problem child once kids went home and told their parents about the bully in school who never let them be first in line to go back in after recess or first in line to get lunch. her aunt decided to start trying soojung in different after-school activities. first it was piano, which she was good at but didn't have the patience for. second was ballet which she was also good at but had to be pulled out quickly when someone else got first in their recitial. finally, she decided soojung needed to have something physical - so she enrolled her in tae kwon do. she thrived. her attitude quickly improved once she could take out all her illbegotten anger out on the people in the class without any ramification, leaving her school life a lot quieter and manageable. her life was normal all through middle school, though she was always the girl who had more boy friends then girl friends. she played games with them, ran around outside with them, even fought with them when they made her mad enough. she was a force to reckon with and she loved it. her aunt seemingly let her do whatever she wanted, and she was that kid that was out all hours of the night with her friends doing god knows what and she was lucky she wasn't caught. her grades were good enough, though they dropped near the end of her last year when she started dating her best friend. it burned too quickly and too brightly and she was sure she was in love but it ended after a few months and she was devastated, and had no idea how to deal with feeling this way anymore. she fought harder and won more championships and filled the hole he left but she was more selective with who she dated from then on. highschool was going to be the best four years of her life...until her mother called and wanted her to move back to korea. her father was sick and dying and she couldn't deal with the loss of him alone so she wanted her precious youngest back. too bad soojung was anything but precious, and the fuss she kicked up about having to back was unreal. but in the end, she was back in korea just before the school year started, dealing with her distraught mother and sickly father, her sister seemingly gone from the picture completely. hell, did she even remember how to speak Korean? she caught back on quickly, though she wasn't much of a daughter to the parents who had never been parents to her. she barely visited her father and she was never home, choosing to spend her time at arcades and when she made friends, with them. when she got boyfriends? all her time with them. first and second year of highschool was a blur of never being home and ignoring phone calls from her sobbing mother. and then her father died. she wasn't sad, but her mother was falling apart at home and when her aunt finally came and visited from the States to be with her mother she was appauled at how soojung was acting. she moved in with the both of them and got soojung back on track, getting her grades back up while picking up the pieces of her sister who had just lost her beloved husband. soojung eventually apologized to her mother, though the apology she got back wasn't the one she was looking for but she had to accept it or she was sure her aunt would kill her. she dated less frequently and studied more, played more games and stayed home more. she absorbed her mother's mood and felt sad all the time, but she fought through it. her aunt was supposed to leave but she ended up just staying there because her sister was in a bad place, and she couldn't trust soojung on her own. and though it didn't come as much of a surprise to soojung, one morning she and her aunt woke up and her mother was just gone. no note, nothing. they waited there for her to come back but eventually they just packed up and moved to a smaller house, and if soojung said she wasn't happy to leave that godforsaken house it would be a bold faced lie. she figured they'd go back to the states but her aunt wanted to stay here in case her mother came back, and soojung begrudgingly accepted and continued on with school. she got more involved with the teams at her school, though couldn't really find anything she wanted to stick to. she played less and less games (which annoyed her on occassion) and started dating again. what could she say? she liked the attention. she kept her grades up and graduated near the top of her class, applying to the same university her mother and father had both went to: yonsei.. she even rushed for the same sorority that her mother had been in, ZTA. she got in, though she struggled with balancing classes and parties. boxing got her full attention though, if only because it felt good to be fighting again.
▸full name: jung soojung ▸goes by: krystal (american name) ▸birth date & age: october 24th / 20 ▸year: sophomore ▸sorority: Zeta Tau Alpha ▸major: Photojournalism ▸clubs: boxing ▸journal: button @ dw ▸aim: # quiet fighters ▸twitter: @punchchopblock	▸ facts allergic to apples. got into boxing because she wanted to kick ass. likes her korean name more than krystal, but will go by either. plays video games when she's alone. atheletic. eats too much and then regrets it when she has to go to the gym. speaks fluent english and korean, defaults to korean unless someone speaks english first. ▸ loves apples. video games. good fiction books. comfy oversized clothes. punching people in the face with no reprecussions. nice looking clothes. every hoodie in the world. tiny kittens. tiny puppies. tiny animals in general. dancing. taking selfies. swimming. skating. beach. water parks. being alone. winning. dark colored clothes. short shorts. cuddling. sleeping. instrumental music. cute coffee shops. ▸ hates gigantic crowds. cucumbers. people who win against her in anything. super bright colored clothes. patterns besides stripes and dots. short skirts. self-absorbed people. people who don't shut up. people who tell her how to dress. people who don't know how to dress. ▸ weaknesses animals. food. asking her to play games. comfy blankets and warm beds. sharing clothes. quiet music playing in the background. coffee.	▸ contact: PM ▸ mun/other: variable time, usually on all hours of the day. both action and para is great, as is organic or plotted.